1. That no matters how much it sucks (and it does suck) life eventually goes on, and sometimes, that is hard to understand, but eventually, you can see and remember the beauty of your babies, no matter how short their lives were.
2. That the people you think will be the best support, might (and probably will) let you down. But you’ll get support from people you never imagined, and what they have to say, the the support they have to offer, is so much better than you ever thought you could be blessed with. It’s one of the benefits of growing up, you can chose your own family.
3. That you gain understanding and compassion in ways you never had before.
4. That you’ll always have these amazing and special memories that are only for you and your babies.
5. That I am so much stronger than I ever imagined I could be. That if I can get through this with my mental and most of my emotional health intact, that I can survive almost anything.
6. That the lives of my babies touched me in so very many ways. And they impacted other people too!
7. Sometimes, you need a turning point in your life, a moment that gives you strength to do good things for yourself, to cut negative people and things out of your life, a chance to have a clean start. And while it’s painful, it can also be an uplifting experience. (That definitely comes with time though.)
8. That what my husband and I have, our relationship, is so much stronger and more beautiful than I ever thought possible. I hate that we had to go through this, but there’s no one else in the world I’d rather have gone through this with.
So happy birthday today Jonathan and David, you will always be my sweet little boys, my first babies and I love you so very much.